It has definitely been more than over a year.. life just got more complicated than ever. A lot has changed since my last post. SO. MUCH. I’ve dealt with pain (still not easy). Depression (I’m getting better). Made some mistakes.. (learned to accept and forgive).
Life’s been bittersweet. Blessed enough to have certain people in my life that believe in me (more than I ever would in myself) and pushed me to better my well being. I now want to succeed in the passions I’m in love with. More than ever.
Before I continue more.. I’m going to let you know that it may get random, but don’t worry if you’ve been following me foreverrrr, then you should already know me by now- it’ll make sense later on (or someday haha).
From social media to streaming on twitch.. if you haven’t noticed when I don’t go on the digital space for a few days, I become a ghost. I am not going to lie, mentally its unhealthy for me. Not only its social media its my outside life too. Work can be difficult (like right now it is) and having friends.. oh lord haha. Kidding. I mean I don’t have a lot of friends, but I hate getting annoyed by people whom I care bout. Because that is the last thing I want to feel towards my friend. (Too I do believe a part of it is acquaintances or “friends” giving me crap bout not living the “party life” per se) Whether they want to eat or do something (every week, or every other day), sometimes I just don’t have the desire to go “out”. May be thats just me or I’m just actually weird. Never use to bother me because I’m that one person who doesn’t care what people think bout me, though at times I will have those days or people in my life. Don’t get me wrong.. I do love to hang out, but when it comes to wanting to get further in your success than the day before; you (I) are going to sacrifice and do what you gotta do to be successful.
Decision making is also another crazy vein that runs through my brain that either overthinks or is just scared. For one dramatic example (maybe not that dramatic but..) I want to quit my retail job again so I can focus on myself, you guys (beefam), on my passions. But yes, I am scared. Having two jobs is stressful.. but yo girl needs money to pay bills and her debt.. (basically til my debt is paid off I can start looking for a place where I can call my own).
Okay its super late now.. and I am too tired to keep typing. AND have to wake up at 5 in the morning.. rip me </3
Goodnight and sweet dreams my friends. I hope ya’ll are doing better than me this past week bc yea.. not so good week for me. Love you guys. I do appreciate you all. Each and individually, have a special place in my heart. If you are like me and life kinda hit you with not only a semi truck but with other cars with it too.. Don’t give up. As broken as we may be.. loving with a broken heart is just as powerful and a form of art. We cant let that go to waste.
Seems like I keep making a pattern of only blogging once a month. (I am trying to blog more, but we’ll see how that goes). On the bright side you guys get tons of photos in ONE blog post, so I guess that’s cool :)
I must say all these photos of the seals and under the sea mammals are from a long while back…
I bring these up now because it is still hot breezy over here in Southern California. Like, its November! Shouldn’t be hot chocolate and fall/winter clothes to be layerin’ up for the cold nights? Its crazy. I can still go to beach with no layers whatsoever.
Honestly just wish it was COLD ALREADY HAHA!
Anyways, these photos were shot from awhile back like I’ve said. I had went to an Sea Life Aquarium here in Carlsbad. I believe it is part of Lego Land. Next door to the park. ‘Twas fun going with my cousins and aunt! Somewhere I have never been so I was happy I got to experience the attraction.
I don’t know if I ever mention this before, but I definitely want to scuba dive, swim or boat with sharks, swim with dolphins as well, and anything else that involves wild life. That is me, I am scared of insects but not afraid to swim with sharks. I know, call me crazy xD
xx Julz
Again, as always, thank you all for the endless support xx
Hope you all are doing alright! :P I am doing swell perhaps. This new journey of mine is only the beginning and am very excited to see what is to come. I am trying a new lifestyle in my life, more of a mental and healthy change I will say.
Have you ever felt so overwhelmed and you just have no idea why!? Well, I have been feeling this way for some quite time when I am not working. At home I usually feel as if I did not have enough rest or something. I find it hard for me to get up with my mind over thinking so much that doesn’t even need to be thought out.
Well, I am just like you. I have recently discovered a study that says being lazy actually makes us stress more. While we feel in a lazy mood and not relaxed. We over think these thoughts like, “why am I lazy today? I’m not going to finish what I wanted today because I am still in bed! If I do it tomorrow I’m going to be behind…” this or that, you get what I am going at.
I’ve been making excuses for myself already by the time I wake up. It stresses me out! So I’ve been trying to find exercises that will help me in the morning to mentally not think negative or just not for me to feel lazy. Its been really hard lately, but I know in the end God is always right there with me.
This might sound crazy to some of you, but usually when I’m in a bad mood or when I just don’t feel the “greatest”, I will just take a moment (while still lying in bed lol) and think about how blessed I am. The little things, the bad things, pretty much everything. I mentioned a few couple of times that when I used to live in AZ in the three years of my life of being crucially in pain (physical pain in my body) I honestly hated my life. Felt like a horrible nightmare I was living and never knew when it was going to end. I now look at today, my life, and now I’m more better than ever! Yes, I still have struggles, but glad they’re not as what they were before . Moments like these I will bring up to myself to remember the importance and how much that awful nightmare changed me for the better.
To be honest with you all, I don’t know what I will be doing today… Sarina comes back home today… So joy :) (hehehehe)
I hope each every one of you are doing great! To start off I had a long past week! Worked everyday since last two Fridays ago! Yeah, twas a long freaking week!!!
For all of you who watch my vlogs, I didn’t vlog that current week :( Because due to work, sleeping in til noon, and waking up past my alarm (which this happens all the time) I am never quite ready on time. So these past 9 long days… life’s been- rough haha. Although, the new job has been chill and interesting. Most of the time been crazy busy and on top of that while working, you lose track of time. Now we’re in the last week of April! Omg where has the time gone…?
Alright so enough about work… photos, photos, & more photos! I still have tons of pictures to go through and edit. Jeez, I maybe have over hundreds of photos still from my current little California trips and from my last trip in Dallas, Texas.
*sigh*
I have so much to share and tell you guys. Though, I can easily just type right now. Just wouldn’t feel right to not show my true expressions to you all!
Jjjyessss new videyo coming at yew… xD
Also so much more photos!!! I’m going to try to edit most of ‘em this week! Right now, I’m going to go out and find more places to go take photos. (And actually get ready… I’ve been feeling slummish lol)
Hope everyone of you have been doing well and enjoying this spring season! :)
Few updates I’m sure I have not yet mentioned on le blog that I started my new job (well… second job, most importantly its my priority right now), but am very excited to see where it leads me! New fresh start to something different. Working at this new job has been exciting, nerve wrecking, anxious, busy, and totally different experience that is awesomely cool.
Another update is I am working on something I never thought would happen, but its exciting and again, just cool! Eeeeeek! *screams silently*
Last update, been on a few adventures with my grandma. Just spending time with her too. Been exploring more of California because there is just so much to see! Been to Dallas, Fortworth, Rockwall Texas and its so freaking beautiful!!!! (I want to live there now hehe) Can’t wait to explore Portland, Oregon and Seattle, Washington as my next two adventures soon :) Hoping and praying that Florida and New York will happen this year. Its been a plan to go to Florida this year for about 2 years now. New York has been a dream of mine since I can remember!!!! xD
All I know is its in His plan. Life is so unsuspecting that anything that can happen. Hope whatever happens it’ll overwhelm me so much that I’ll be able to share it with you guys! :)
Okay… Onto my latest photos! Here are just few edited photos from my explorations. More coming your way!
Hey, I'm Julieza, am 22 years old in Southern California. I write a style & lifestyle blog to share for anyone who is interested to join my journey. I love to write, play video games, photograph, travel, and video. I live everyday with motivation to pursue my dreams. I honestly can't tell you where I'll be headed tomorrow, which makes life a bit more spontaneous.
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